It's been 3 months and I miss you more than ever, mom. We had a pumpkin carving party at our house yesterday. You were here for it last year, dressed in a silly long wig and carrying Juliet around the house so proudly in her little bumblebee outfit. We all had a great family day yesterday, but it will never be the same without you.
This is a picture I took of Grandma holding Audrey. Grandma cried when she saw pictures of you hanging everywhere- she wears her hurt and pain more outwardly than the rest of us. There is a large picture of you hanging above her- it's from your memorial service. I like walking by it and looking at your beautiful, strong hands as I live my everyday moments. I just wish you were more than a picture on the wall. I grieve for you so deeply, every single day.